My Goal

For so long I've depended on others for happiness and reassurance. Time after time, I put my life into these people, trusting them with all my heart that they will guard it and keep it with them wherever they go. And yet, time after time, I find myself in a pathetic heap in my bed surrounded by crumpled up, used tissues because someone let me down. It took me a devastating heartbreak in which I lost someone so dear to me, that I finally realized. It's me. I'm the one that's been doing this to myself. I'm the one that makes promises I can't keep. I'm the one that is naive. I'm the one that trusts too easily. It's no one else's fault but my own. I lost sight of who I was during this heartbreak that it took me to scary lows. I eventually took a good, hard look in the mirror and told myself to stop. Stop crying. Stop blaming yourself. It's time to move on, and the only way to do that is to become independent. So I googled "how to be independent" (ironic, I know), and 895,000,000 results popped up. Instead of carefully going through each result and taking to heart everything I read, I want to use this blog to post the important things and the things that I will really try to work on. In doing this, I hope to inspire myself, and possibly others, to become a better person.